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give me the strength to do what I want

I'm having difficulty focusing. I think it's Ok if I goof off a little as I've been on the ball and getting enough done up till this point, but I could be lying to myself. Sigh. Fingers crossed it's the former and not the latter.

Lunch time has become a boondoggle in my brain because I suddenly have too many options all which appeal and not appeal for contradictory reasons. Today there is the yearly staff appreciation luncheon for the entire school of humanities and sciences. I go every year and this is the first one I get 'honored' for 5 years of service(by having my name called out and being forced to stand along-side other 5 yearsers). It's nice to see some of my work acquaintances and some folks I genuinely like, but it always feels awkward as people tend to sit with their fellow office-mates or bosses and I want to sit with my friends (who want to sit with their bosses). The last few years I have dragged my staff and it's been OK. But this year one is leaving early, another is on vacation and the third would rather go to her (our) workout class.

Which brings me to my second option--attend the workout class. It's a resistance training thing with those colorful rubber bands and it's hard work but really rewarding. I like going and had to miss all my lunch-time work out classes so far this week because of lunch meetings. So, last night I was thinking I'd skip the luncheon and work out and the thought made me happy. I tend to over eat at these luncheons and it shows on the scale the very next morning and exercise makes me feel better generally. But, last night Audrey and I ran 5.5 miles in 55 minutes (fast for me) outside, on hard cement, and my muscles are hurting. I also feel physically tired out, my thighs are sore as heck, and my lower back aches. So, a zillion squats (what we usually do in class) might not be the best option. I'm also planning on doing some light cardio this evening to keep the blood flowing and to keep me from stiffening up, so I will be getting some exercise today. Just not resistance training. of course, I could do some stomach crunches to make up for it...

My final option is to sit at my desk, eat my tasty leftovers from last night (lentils, carrots, broccoli and quinoa) and listen to NPR. This feels like the one I want to do, but I think I'll feel guilty for skipping the workout and a little bad for skipping the free food luncheon where I can network and show my face. What to do?

I just feel so tired and anti-social today. I just want to hide out in my jammies right now, but tonight I'm supposed to hang out with Audrey and Vanessa. Normally, I'd just cancel, but Vanessa just got back from New Zealand (after 2 years) and is leaving this weekend to be in Long Island with family for 5 weeks. It's sort of the only time to be with her for a long bit.


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May. 8th, 2008 07:18 pm (UTC)
I'm always for the politics of things. I think you should show your face. Because you're being honored, you'd be acutely missed which could damage your career there.
May. 8th, 2008 07:29 pm (UTC)
Not really. There will be at least 400 people there and at least 50 will be hitting 5 years. They just read your name out from a list, you stand at your seat, there is clapping once all the names are said, and you sit. I decided to take it easy and hang in the office.
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